Just Me!

Now let me start by saying....

I AM a thinker!
I AM a list maker!
I AM an organizer!

 I love all of these things about me in small doses. But, sometimes I...... well, OVERDO them! The past few weeks a lot has happened in the Britton household. If you know much about me, you know I don't share much of my life with others. I mean, real stuff. Yes, I post on face book about all that we do and all that I LOVE. But, I don't speak out when I want to. I don't stand up when I need to. I second guess every word that I say and every word that I hear.

 Well, I have felt like I was going to BLOW UP this week. I would just look at Brandon and say, "I don't know what to do next?"

 I finally called a friend, which I never do, and told all. It was liberating! I told her that I had so much going on that I felt I needed a list to keep up with all of it. It wasn't a list of things to do, people to see,or places to go; that I would normally make. But, I needed a list to keep my thoughts in order. A list to concentrate and process what I was thinking about before I went on to the next thought.

 I HAD to take control of my wandering mind before it took control of me. I'm learning new things about myself these days. I feel FREE when I share my thoughts. I am learning to have faith in others when I need to talk. I am moving on. I don't need the approval of those around me that don't love me anyway. I don't have to please anyone but my Lord. He is the one that controls me and He is the one that I answer to. He is the one that loves me for being....... Just ME!
AMEN.

Hazy

I watched you sleeping quietly in my bed
You don't know this now but there's some things that need to be said
And it's all that I can hear, It's more than I can bare

What if I fall and hurt myself?
Would you know how to fix me
What if I went and lost myself?
Would you know where to find me
If I forgot who I am,
Would you please remind me oh?
Cause without you things go hazy

I watched you sleeping quietly in my bed
You don't know this now but there's some things that need to be said
And it's all that I can hear, It's more than I can bare

What if I fall and hurt myself?
Would you know how to fix me
What if I went and lost myself?
Would you know where to find me
If I forgot who I am,
Would you please remind me oh?
Cause without you things go hazy

What if I fall and hurt myself?
Would you know how to fix me
What if I went and lost myself?
Would you know where to find me
If I forgot who I am,
Would you please remind me oh?
Cause without you things go hazy

Creative Therapy



Last week was yucky, and Monday is normally pretty blah...... But, not yesterday!!! It was my annual "Hobby Lobby All Day Long Fest!!!!" I ran away early yesterday morning and tried to have as little contact as possible with the technology. At one point Brandon even sent a text which said, "M.I.A?" Well, I looked, touched and dreamed about what I was going to do with all the treasures I had found. I even made new friends : ) I  had a grandma follow me around for two hours. She enjoyed my adventure as much as I did. I know I must have gone down the same two aisles thirty times!! Yes, I WAS there THAT long!!!! Once I made my final decisions, I hurried home to get started. I made necklaces, earrings and braclets. I had so much fun! My LOVE for owls is definitely present in the pieces.I can't wait to get more chains (they were not half off this week) so that I can use the rest of the beads that I have. When I got ready to leave a lady asked me, "What are you doing with all of this?" I said, "Nothing, its just therapy!!!"

These Shoes Are Made For Running

Who would have EVER thought I would be running? Six months ago I hated even thinking about walking! I could not understand why in the world anyone would ever want to do that to themselves. Well, I'm hooked! If you know me, you know it's all or nothing for me. Never half done. That is just annoying and lazy! Well, I did my first 5k in June and I thought I'd die! I was embarrassed crossing the line with just a few people left behind me to cross over. But, I was also beaming because of the success of finishing.That was only the beginning of what I am doing with my life now. Everyday I wake up and I see the changes yesterday made. My confidence is growing and my level of adventure is endless. I'm now doing the half marathon. My new friends that I have met are beautiful in every way. They encourage me so much and Brandon is extremely supportive, as usual.So, now when I tie my shoes it's more than a bow I learned to make as a child. It's a start to a new ME. Cause these shoes are made for running and that's just what they'll do. One of these days these shoes are gonna run right past you! :-)He He!

The Simple Things

Brandon came home today and showed me a blog post that belonged to one of his best friends. I absolutely LOVED it. And, if you know anything about me... I LOVE a lot of things. They can be as simple as my Hydrangea blooming or a chocolate kiss from my husband. I try to focus  on little things to LOVE throughout the day. I even add them to my calendar, so they are always there for me to remember. I connected so much with her blog post. And, the simplicity of the things she found in life to satisfy her. As always, he encouraged me to start my own. I think it will be a good way to express all of these crazy feelings I have had lately. I hope you will join me in appreciating the little things in life and sometimes the big, like having a great family to support you. 


Jade